I have started this journey many times. Lots of times. I have not succeeded.
Yesterday I went to the doctor for a UTI. They insisted on weighing me. I was over 200 lbs!!! What? How could that be? I knew that my clothes were getting snug, but come on, 10 lbs put on in less than two months!? I don't understand!?
Today I went to the mall. My shirt was baggy and my pants were too tight. I was so self-conscious the WHOLE time. When you are big, every person seems like they are skinny. Women who had just popped out babies, were sporting size 0 jeans. I don't even know when I last wore a zero and they just popped out a baby!? You have got to be kidding me?
I do not feel THAT fat, but the BMI charts say that I am "obese." How did this happen? I have to get it under control. I want to live long enough to see my grandchildren. I want to dance with my children without my body jiggling like jello. I want to hold onto the seat of my daughter's bike and teach her how to ride it without training wheels, preferrably without getting winded in the first two feet.
I HAVE TO DO THIS!!!
I HAVE TO SAVE MYSELF!!!!
I HAVE TO SAVE MY MARRIAGE!!!
I haven't even begun to scratch the surface of the emotional impact this has had on me! I am so tired everyday from thinking about being fat. I want to lose enough weight to be healthy!
I am starting this journey! I can do it! I will do it! I will wear a bathing suit and shorts this summer!!! I will go to the beach and sport a fit body!
Let's get this party started!!!
WEEK ONE GOALS:
Lose 5 lbs
Drink 100oz of water per day
No more soda
Baby steps. I can do this!
